a weeks worth of entries

i was having trouble updating my friendster blog the whole week….and I tried everyday! (hehe! Bloghead that I am) so the entries kind of accumulated….
and because i couldn't even post an entry on my friendster blog, i finally moved here....

enjoy!

p.s.
i'm still learning html code....so please be patient.....hehe....took me a few hours just to make the blog look like this! hahahaha!

This is more of a reminder in case I forget…..

My parents have already given me everything I’ll ever need to make my own way in life. The education, experience, emotional and psychological support. Now I’m at that point of my life where I should (because I am able) get up and go. It’s all up to me now. My parents can do little for me, if I don’t have the initiative.

That said…..

I just have one problem. There’s this little voice in my head screaming and I can’t ignore it, because it’s absolutely right- I AM TERRIFIED. At the same time I’m looking forward to the life I can have, I am terrified of leaving this safe world my parents have built. I have a whole list of what ifs going through my head and none of them are happy thoughts. I feel like I’m on a cliff about to jump off into the sea. But I have to jump at the right time or I might just hit the rocks below.

My first step toward the cliff:

I’ve started sending out my CV. Not just to local companies, but over seas as well. It’s just that, I have never really imagined my self staying here. For me it’s more of a “when am I getting out of here?” than an “if I get out” question. (not at all patriotic huh? But is there a patriotic pinoy?)


I’m at the hospital right now. Lolo’s been confined again for the nth time. I’m not really at all thrilled to be here, not that I’m afraid of hospitals or anything. But if you knew my lolo…..you’d understand why. That sounds so mean....

But there’s something I’ve learned. No matter how……difficult a person is, his/her family will always be there. Even if he doesn’t display his appreciation, not even a bit, not even at all.

Haayyyyy…..families are so complicated!


On a more shallow point…..i’m totally hating my hair right now. It reminds me of why I decided to go long and curly…..less problems. And I didn’t have to brush or comb every time it became unruly…. It was a hairstyle that was best messy. hehehe! The ultimate hairstyle for the lazy! so why did I cut my hair?! Oh yeah…. I wanted to change something about my look….hair is always the easiest to change….plus the fact that now it looks like everyone’s going curly (so sassi, I guess, yes I did mind, but because it’s you, I didn’t care that much. I was more bothered by others…)


Just found out….we won’t be pushing through tomorrow (Friday)! Awwww…..sayang….oh well life goes on…that’s the second activity this month that I was looking forward to that isn’t pushing through. The first one was going with our cousin to batangas to climb a mountain…we were planning on going with him, but their plans changed, they’re going rappelling na….. eh sobrang beginner palang kami so we decided to back out. Pero, basta the next time they go up a mountain, I’m really going up with them. I’ve seen the pictures they have on their site and the stories that were posted….and it looks and sounds so fun and exciting to be up there. The scenery, the experience, the different people you meet along the way, it would be so worth the trouble and exhaustion. And you challenge your self; you reach your limits and even go beyond what you thought you could do.


Finished watching “The Graduate”, hehe! Isha and I wer laughing all throughout the film. It’s not a comedy though…at least I don’t think it is. But it was made in the ‘60s or was it the ‘70s? anyway we were laughing at the cinematography, some of the dialogue, etc. it’s just so different from the movies you see now a days…and you just gotta see the scene on the bus with ben and Elaine! You should see the expression on their faces, they have this “what do we do now?!” look going on! Hahaha! Priceless!